Monday, May 4, 2009

Things are Changing

Sometimes the time gets away from me. Well, that and the fact I cant remember anything anymore. Oh well its all worth it! I love being pregnant and I'm so thankful I get this chance to be a mom. I'm scared, I'm nervous, I'm fearful, I'm excited, I'm ready...I think. God broke my heart on Sunday. I have been fighting these feelings of fear for a while and on Sunday God said please give those to me . I want them. I want to take care of them. I don't want you to deal with them anymore. I have been emotional ever since. It just seems like everything in my life is changing and its all so exciting but this fear is holding me back. SO if you would pray with me about this fear I'm facing so it will go away so I can truly enjoy every moment of this pregnancy.

Theres a lot going in with the church now. Its in full swing and full of excitement. Its such a blessing to watch Zane preach on Sunday. I always feel so proud and I know that God speaks to him through the week so he knows what to tell us on Sunday. I feel encouraged by my own husband as a pastor. I don't know if I ever knew that we would be going down this road of pastoring at such a young age. I don't pastor of course but you get the point. HaHa. I always knew their would be a lot of pressure and a lot of responsibility but wow its tough. I love it but its tough. My sister Emily goes to church with me every Sunday. I love it. I love her. I love her heart. I love what shes becoming. Its so exciting to see. I love my other siblings just as much as her but I love that she goes to church with me. I think God knew I needed someone to sit with me and "hold my hand" if you know what I mean. I cant wait to look back in a few years and see the growth the church as made as people and as a community.

I know this has been super long but I have been overemotional today so I knew I needed to get all of this off my chest. If you haven't checked out Zane's blog be sure and do so. Hes going through Psalms 119 all week and blogging about it and its great. Also, check out Emily's new blog post. I love when God uses young people and speaks to them. I guess that's it til next time.

Oh yea I'm 18 weeks now! woo hoo. We find out what were having on May 14th it cant come fast enough!

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Yay Ashley!! I am so excited for you and Zane! I totally understand the fearful/overemotional part, it must be part of the process. I will keep you in my prayers as you go through this exciting time! God is so amazing, and I know he is taking such good care of you and your precious baby! xo